i have not been hacked.

this is, as my friend robin would say, totes legit. i wouldn't say that, though, because i'm not 13.  (for the record, neither is robin, but she is far more hip than i.)

i think my four loyal readers have moved on to bigger and better things...and i don't blame them.  it got pretty quiet around here for a while, but i want to try it again, for myself.

i stopped writing because i was depressed.  i alluded to it in a post over two years ago, but that was written before i realized (or would admit) that something was seriously wrong.  because i am ridiculously stubborn, it took me nearly two years to seek the help i desperately needed.  but i did and things are a lot better now.  i've learned so much about myself, relationships, life, and my beliefs through this experience and one bitter lesson from the last three years is that, my depression was not caused by life's circumstances and, therefore, it is not going to just go away.  so this new sweetpagene is here to stay...but i'm learning how to live life again, instead of just exist.  and part of living my life is being obnoxious in the best way i know how:  by writing a silly blog.

so here i am!

and guess what!!!!  it's time for my annual christmas letter that is not actually annual because i only did it one time!  two years ago!  it will be full of all kinds of marvelous achievements and fascinating events from the last two years!!! get excited. (really though, i was depressed, so it will be the bummer of all christmas letters.)

but that will have to wait until tomorrow because all this typing has worn me right out.  i better go take a nap.